I can’t Sleep

I feel like a kid the night before Christmas… the limo will be here in 4 hours to bring us on what we hope is the most magical trip of our lives.  “Our bags are packed….we’re ready to go.”  I imagine that my little princess is dreaming of Cinderella and all the fun things we have told her we are doing.  I imagine my baby boy who is still a bit young to understand what exactly is going on…is dreaming of planes and “MOUSE”.  I took my Ambien at 8PM in hopes of making it through… it worked until midnight.  Here I sit in bed, Mike snoring beside me ( don’t tell him I told you he snores) and I am running through lists in my head, and it is ALL done.  AMAZING.  Nothing more for me to do then to catch a few more zzzzz’s I just know that probably isn’t going to happen.  Which is fine, I will be running on pure adrenaline tomorrow and for the next week! I can sleep when we get home.

As I have shared before that this Make A Wish Trip is a double edge sore for me.  I am excited at the opportunity this gives us as a family to escape and see Disney in a way that never would be possible.  This is royal treatment that money just can’t buy.  But, I have this nagging feeling weighing heavy on my heart…the only reason we are given this amazing opportunity is because Katy has a very sick heart.  Of course she is deserving of a week away from hospitals, appointments, blood sticks etc. etc. But, its only a week and then we will be right back to the hell that is our baby girls daily life. 

I am going to try with all my might… to put that behind us.,  Wrapped it up, tuck it away and leave it at home…once I buckle K & P into their seats in the “limeosine” as Katy calls it. And just cherish each and every moment at the most magical place on earth. 

My plan is to upload and share pictures nightly while we  are there, but I make no promises.  Please pray that we have an uneventful week a way!! 

Much Love!