Stream of Consciousness

December Edition

I find myself filled with so many emotions this time of year.  I think it is that way for a lot of people.

Christmas is a time to reflect on the year… to be merry and cheerful… to give more than you receive… to celebrate and kiss under mistletoe. 

What do you do when the year you have to reflect on is the hardest year you have ever faced in your 30 years on earth?  What do you do when you have nothing to give and yet are blessed with the kindness of strangers who just want to make Christmas magical for you and your family?  What do you do when you would rather sleep than kiss your love under the mistletoe?

I’ll tell you what I am doing… I am faking it until I make it.

What do you do when the year you have to reflect on is the hardest year you have ever faced in your 30 years on earth?

I am reflecting on all the blessings that our family has been given.  Katy is thriving at school and loving dance once again this year.  Patrick is a school and has a place that is his own that he is loved on and comfortable and learning new things… it is his safe place when life gets crazy with hospital appointments and admissions.  I am being reminded that people are good and want to do good.  I am remembering all of our friends and family that have gotten us through this year and will get us through the next.

What do you do when you have nothing to give and yet are blessed with the kindness of strangers who just want to make Christmas magical for you and your family?

I am saying thank you…and praying for the day that we can one day Pay It Forward.  I am using one of the gift cards that was given to us and buying the car behind me a cup of coffee… it hopes of making their day a bit brighter. 

What do you do when you would rather sleep than kiss your love under the mistletoe?

You kiss because you know you are not going to be able to sleep anyway.

All of this is made easier when you have the luxury to see the Christmas  through the eyes of  your children.  Katy & Patrick definitely make it easier to suck it up (for lack of a better word)   They are so happy and excited for every little detail, and really their excitement is contagious. 

So we do it all and we do it as BIG as we can.  We don’t know what tomorrow may bring, but we know we have today.  So today we are going to do it up and make the best memories.