The Murphy Family: January 2012

Monday, January 23, 2012

So What He’s 3 and She’s 4

And I just made their Birth Announcement Nursery Art.

You can judge me. The frames have been empty on their dressers since before they were born.

It’s OK… Because they are cute!! I love the subway arty style.

And when they are older and they are packing up their room, they won’t remember that I didn’t have them done until they were 3 & 4. They will think that they were always there.

There big kid room is coming a long… I am eyeing some ADORABLE Pottery Barn Bedding… but even if I could afford it…. I wouldn’t spend that kind of money on a set of sheets for me let alone kids. So I am on the hunt. Will share as it comes together.

Thursday, January 19, 2012

Happy Birthday Handsome Boy

Three years ago Mike and I were blessed with a healthy baby boy, and the world gained a kind, gentle, loving, caring and funny person.

Patrick you were and are a miracle and gift to our family. An easy going, happy spirited fun little one, that has brought nothing but pure joy to our family. Your timing was impeccable and I love that you and Katy are so close in age. You two have an amazing bond and I see it getting stronger and stronger each day.

You gave me a pregnancy I prayed for, no complications. I was just a normal pregnant lady.

You entered this world on your terms took your sweet time doing it.

I love that you are a caring sweet boy, just like your daddy. You are a definite care taker, a nurturer.

You have a smile the lights up a room and melts your mama’s heart each and every time.

Thank you little man for completing our family. For reminding me to stop and laugh and tickle, and enjoy this awesome life.

I love you to Infinity and Beyond!!!!

Tuesday, January 17, 2012

The Why vs. The Why Me

Lately I have been focusing on the Why. Not to be confused with the why me, that I have struggled with in the past. It’s not that I don’t still struggle with the Why Me… I do just not as often. In some ways I feel I have made a bit of peace with the why me. Learning to take the good with the bad the natural ebb and flow of life. Focusing more on the haves and less on the have not’s.

This is a great way to live, it would be oh so wonderful to think that I can just bottle up my fears, sadness, and anger that go along with the Why Me. It’s not realistic for me to think that I can do that…it’s not just a switch I can turn on and off and even if I could, I’m not sure I want to… it reminds me to enjoy the good and the normal so much more. It has also helped me work my way through to want to know the Why.

I want to know what my purpose is. Not matter your religious beliefs (trust me I am still trying to figure mine out) I know that I do believe that each and every one of us has a purpose. I know that my main purpose is to be the best wife to Mike (I am working on it) and the best mother to both Kathryn and Patrick. To be a respectful loving daughter, and to be a kind and caring citizen. But, I think there is something more I can and should be doing.

Our life has been a state of unknown scary limbo for the last year and a half… the last 18 MONTHS. Katy has been listed on the heart transplant list for EIGHTEEN MONTHS! Pretty much unheard of… But, really our future has been unknown and scary since I was 18 weeks pregnant with my baby girl and the doctors first uttered those words. “There is something seriously wrong with your baby’s heart” on that warm, sticky August day when our world would never be the same and I spent the follow days, thrashing around in my bed inconsolable screaming WHY ME?!?! Why our baby that we have prayed for, begged for, endured more medical procedures and heartache then I ever thought possible. Maybe I have just focused on the more of the Why now because I realize that I may never know the Why Me? or maybe just maybe if I find the Why the answer to the Why Me will come.

The most important thing I have learned is to enjoy the small things. To really stop and take in your surroundings and be thankful for all you have. I have learned I am able to get by on a lot less, and still have a pretty amazing life. I have learned that people will surprise you when you least expect it and that one way or another we will be provided for. I have learned that I can count on my parents, friends, loved ones and strangers. I have learned people want to help… I have learned it is OK to accept help. I have learned that I can not control it all no matter how hard I try, and that in some instances it is better to give up control and just enjoy whatever the plan is. I don’t know how this story ends, but I do know if it were to all end tomorrow I could some how make peace with it. Knowing that I lived each and every second not worrying about our future.

I don’t know where my search for the Why is going to take me. I do know that I have a purpose and when I figure it out I am going to do BIG things with it! Big!!

For now I am going to be focusing on working on being the best wife and mom that I can be and spend some more time feeling happy… it’s a feeling I haven’t felt in some time and it feels A.M.A.Z.I.N.G

These guys might have something to do with it…

Thursday, January 12, 2012

Stream of Consciousness

January Edition

Not too much going on… no news is usually always good news with us.

Katy had an uneventful Christmas vacation… she didn’t really understand what school vacation was she thought that we were going on vacation…like leaving on a jet plane. So she was a bit disappointed when we told her that her vacation was snuggling up and having jammie days and getting to play with all her new toys. She seemed to think that was a pretty good option. Here she is taking a ~~Cat~~ Dog nap with Shelby. Yes, she is standing up and sleeping.

Lots of fun with family! I love watching them all play. They get along so well! So awesome!

She had a great cardiac check up… Dr. Blume is very well with how well she is doing. Fluid Restriction although it is hard on us to ignore her repeated requests for WATER…we can usually distract her enough.

Patrick is doing great, loves school and is getting excited about his 3rd Birthday!! Which like Kathryn’s will be low key to help prevent germs…and they will both have a HUGE bash in the summer.

Oh and the big news is that it is official we are CRAZY!! They Murphy Family has grown by one

Introducing

Miss Minnie Murphy

She has stolen all of our hearts and has brought such joy to even Shelby…

Sometimes you just need to do what you need to do…and I felt we needed some happiness. Shelby is a bit big for K & P to handle and I wanted something that K & P could help take care of and walk. Minnie has been an amazing fit to our crazy family. I don’t regret it at all, and it is something we wouldn’t be able to do post transplant…no new pets 6-12 months after transplant.