Monday, September 27, 2010

I can’t Sleep

I feel like a kid the night before Christmas… the limo will be here in 4 hours to bring us on what we hope is the most magical trip of our lives.  “Our bags are packed….we’re ready to go.”  I imagine that my little princess is dreaming of Cinderella and all the fun things we have told her we are doing.  I imagine my baby boy who is still a bit young to understand what exactly is going on…is dreaming of planes and “MOUSE”.  I took my Ambien at 8PM in hopes of making it through… it worked until midnight.  Here I sit in bed, Mike snoring beside me ( don’t tell him I told you he snores) and I am running through lists in my head, and it is ALL done.  AMAZING.  Nothing more for me to do then to catch a few more zzzzz’s I just know that probably isn’t going to happen.  Which is fine, I will be running on pure adrenaline tomorrow and for the next week! I can sleep when we get home.

As I have shared before that this Make A Wish Trip is a double edge sore for me.  I am excited at the opportunity this gives us as a family to escape and see Disney in a way that never would be possible.  This is royal treatment that money just can’t buy.  But, I have this nagging feeling weighing heavy on my heart…the only reason we are given this amazing opportunity is because Katy has a very sick heart.  Of course she is deserving of a week away from hospitals, appointments, blood sticks etc. etc. But, its only a week and then we will be right back to the hell that is our baby girls daily life. 

I am going to try with all my might… to put that behind us.,  Wrapped it up, tuck it away and leave it at home…once I buckle K & P into their seats in the “limeosine” as Katy calls it. And just cherish each and every moment at the most magical place on earth. 

My plan is to upload and share pictures nightly while we  are there, but I make no promises.  Please pray that we have an uneventful week a way!! 

Much Love!

Saturday, September 25, 2010

We leave for Disney…

Monday at 5AM… Guess how much I have packed…



Nana is coming to take the kids tomorrow… so Mike and I can get everything set!

Thanks Mom!

Wednesday, September 22, 2010

Burt’s Bee Winner

Congratulations to Tara the winner of the Burt’s Bee Fun at the Playground Give Away.  Tara please send me an email with your mailing address and I will get this out ASAP!

Thanks for reading!

Tuesday, September 21, 2010


It’s funny I always thought that Mike and I would have twins, maybe it is because I knew our chances were higher given the fact that we were doing fertility treatments.  Maybe its because twins run in my family. Or maybe its because I wanted them, I thought they would be fun!

Well, I didn’t have twins, but I have the next best thing.  Katy & Patrick who are 13 Months apart and are each others best friends.

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It’s funny to me that I am now embracing the thought that they are a lot like twins,  considering that when people would ask if they were twins, Mike and I would be offended.  I think we were offended not at the thought that they could be, but more devensive for Kate… because for  awhile clearly they were not twins Kate was walking and talking and Patrick was not…now they seem more evenly matched.

The bond they share is something that I think could be described in they way you would describe twins.  They are so caring and understanding to each other.  It is a wonderful thing to see.  Anyone that meets our Murphy babes comments on how well they play together and take care of one another. 

We have talked about adding Murphy Babe # 3 but I think we have decided not to mess with perfection.

We’ll see!

Thursday, September 16, 2010

Buh Bye 20’s Hello 30!

Wow…hard to believe I am bidding farewell to my 20’s already….wow what a decade it’s been.  Good, bad and  ugly.

I accomplished a lot in my 20’s…it was a big decade for me, as I am sure it is for many.  In some ways I am exactly where I thought I would be when I hit the big 3-0, well not exactly but, no one could have predicted this journey I am on.  I have dealt with a lot in the last ten years more than most people to do in their entire lives, I am thankful for each and every experience.  It’s made me who I am today. Good, bad and ugly.  I have been forced to do A LOT of growing up and maturing.  Things that mattered to me ten years ago eh, 3 years ago seem so silly.

In the past ten years I became a wife, I overcame hurdles of infertility, and dealt with my parents divorce. I have learned to scrapbook and knit. I have birthed two babes.  I have learned more about the human heart and CHD’s, then the normal person would/should know.  I have become an advocate for my little girl.   I have met new friends and ditched some old ones.  

My twenties have been trying.  I am stronger for it.  I am curious to what my 30’s have in store for me.  I won’t say they will be better, or worse.  I will say it will be different.  I am looking  forward to making lots of memories with my wonderful, amazing husband who has been by my side during the good, bad and ugly that my 20’s were and loves me anyway. My beautiful daughter, who reminds me everyday that miracles do happen.  My handsome little man who will always be my baby.  I’m excited to nurture and grow each and everyone of these relationships.

“My next thirty years I’m gonna settle all the scores
Cry a little less, laugh a little more
Find a world of happiness without the hate and fear
Figure out just what I’m doing here
In my next thirty years”  Tim McGraw

Saturday, September 11, 2010

Playground Hunt & A GIVE AWAY!!!

I figure most of my readers are parents…and even if you aren’t I am sure you know someone with a babe or two who would benefit from this AWESOME website designed by a fellow Bitchin mama…and her kick ass husband.

(I know a lot of swears for me, but really we are some Bitchin Mama’s and if you ever met our husbands you would agree they are KICK ASS!)

So anyway back to the point of this post…. I’m sure like me, most of you like to take the kidlets out to the playground to burn off some energy.  You can only go to your local park….SO MANY TIMES.  Or maybe you are looking for a spot that has some water play and you are curious about just how clean that water play area is.

Or you are like me and there is nothing more frustrating then arriving to a park and finding out it only has ONE toddler SWING! ONE! I mean that is RIDICULOUS, considering I have to toddlers that are going to monopolize and fight over that swing the entire time we are there.

Angelika and Josh have created a website where we can share our experience and photos if we have them of parks we have visited…they have started it out and are really wonderful about researching a park in your area to help you find a place to play. 

Playground Hunt

In honor of Angelika and her awesome website I am offering a

Give AWAY!  


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That’s a total of 6 entries… pretty good odds.

This giveaway is open to US Resident Only! Winners will be announced then after having been selected via Random Org and will notified by e-mail (if available) and I blog the winner. Once I announce the winner, you will have 48 hours to get back to me, otherwise a new winner will be selected.

Thursday, September 09, 2010

Future Teacher?!

The other night this is how I  found Kathryn and Patrick, while they were waiting for mommy and daddy to do bedtime routine.


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I am certain this is how I started out…

Wednesday, September 08, 2010

Patrick’s 1st ER Visit


Well it was just a matter of time, and to be honest the way Patrick plays and his fearless ways, I’m surprised it didn’t happen sooner.

Let me tell you though, he couldn’t have picked a WORSE time to fall and split his head open.

Mike and I were with Katy at Children’s recovering from her G Tube surgery. 

Patrick was staying with Auntie Kris.

I was “napping” with Katy

Cell phone rings, Mike answers.  I can only hear his side of the convo and it goes something like this:

Mike: Hi, OK… How bad? Really? Is he bleeding a lot? Alright…bring him here.  I’ll  meet you downstairs. OK. Call me when you get here.

Me:  Waking from my  slumber for the is he bleeding A LOT

Mike explains to me that Patrick fell and hit his head and Kris thinks he needs a stitch.  I freaking lost it.  I was overtired, super stressed anyway from just being in the hospital, already missing my baby boy and to have him have his first injury and I wasn’t there to comfort him, just broke my heart. 

Now mind you, if I couldn’t be there… Auntie Krissie was the next best thing, actually thinking about it, she was probably the better choice, considering that the moment I saw BLOOD I would have most likely lost it.

Mike couldn’t understand why I was crying… I really don’t have any explanation other than GUILT… guilt for not being with him.  Not that I think it would have changed it…could have happened just as easily at home. 

Poor Patrick ended up with 5 staples in the back of his head… he was running around Katy’s hospital room within an hour, and flirting with all the nurses. 

I’ll spare you the photos!

Update: 9-8-2010

I am happy to report that Patrick is now staple free!!!

Wednesday, September 01, 2010

What we do when we are not at Children’s…

I know a lot of my updates are in regards to Katy’s special heart and our days at Children’s, for obvious reasons. But, when we aren’t at Children’s we do things like:

We hang at the beach…


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We relax and enjoy the sunshine:


We snuggle late at night…


We hang poolside… well past our afternoon nap time!…

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We eat cupcakes…Chocolate cupcakes with LOTS of frosting!…


We play at the park…

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and sometimes we pout, when we don’t get our own way…


But through it all we are loving each and every minute of our lives!!! Making good days the BEST days and trying to keep our bad days, in check.